The morning is full of storm in the heart of summer. The clouds travel like white handkerchiefs of good-bye, the wind, traveling, waving them in its hands. Pablo Neruda The Year of Discovery is off to a rocky start. Not surprising. When you want to make change in your life there's going to be stops … Continue reading A rocky start… well maybe not?
I'm fucking sick and angry and scared honestly. It's 2020. Can we know that the color of your skin still impacts your life in a million ways? I guess some will never admit that. Why must we have cops with 18 complaints out "serving" the public? 18. That's the number of people who complained. It … Continue reading George Floyd R.I.P.
Bahhahaaa "ho." Did you see it? Sunday I've reflected and recalibrated and am ready to look forward! (Although it was an epic year and I expect to hear from and still learn things from the YOS I want to have a different focus now.) Here's the beginning thoughts of that. Friends and family- I want … Continue reading Enough looking back… onward ho
I'm really dumb in some things. May 2020 How did I not know that Hillbilly was drinking... my daughter asked me as she is processing some stuff from childhood. She was talking about something I told her that Hillbilly told me the night everything came out, the night I tried to give him a hint … Continue reading “How did you not know Dad was drinking?”
Honestly I think I vetted people pretty well after C.N.May 2020 Dear HUD: You sent me a dick video so I sent you a video and then I learned some good lessons. Men can be great liars (duh) and some men save dick videos on their phone so then when you think each of you … Continue reading Dear menz of YOS…What I Would Like to Say To You Today
Learning doesn't stop, unless you an idiot of course.May 2020 I'm going to write this but honestly am a little afraid to because I don't wish to argue about the things I THINK I know. I may put something here that categorically isn't true for most men, or for men of other places. I dated … Continue reading the year of sluttery: what I learned about men, part 2
What will it be like to be in a relationship where I'm so seen?Tuesday morning musings "Wait I have one something to tell you..." Oh geesh what can this be I wondered. "You are... how shall I say this... hmmm.. militant in being authentic. I will think of a more eloquent way to put it … Continue reading What the fuckery answered
And... Click... we gear down our expectations and hopes for this one. I'm built to have hope. I can't not have hope. Memorial Day, 11:25 a.m. I was literally just grabbing my mowing shoes to finish the backyard and had to sit down and write about this. This feeling. It is a suffocating feeling. I've … Continue reading Damn it… I hate this feeling
I learned it's a real live obstacle course out there... an Ironman competition for the heart. May 2020 What did I learn over the last year? Well let's see. I learned most men don't know how to take a good selfie and have no idea how to create a good dating bio for one. It's … Continue reading YOS: Lessons learned about men part 1
Goddamn girl you kinda grew up didn't you? Saturday, home alone Well darling. It's going to be fun, really most of it, until you actually try to have some relationships, then... not so much. We'll talk about that another time though. Some incredible things are getting ready to happen to you, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and … Continue reading Dear 13-months-ago Scarlett…